[the group that dash talks about, the one that kept people safe, jiho's not sure what kind of tactics they used exactly. but he can't help but think that he could've helped them too.]
i think about that a lot. about what could've happened to them. if i had gotten there later, they might not have been able to get away. i would feel more guilt about that than anything, i think. but if neve had been there, maybe he could've stopped them.
they wouldn't let me sleep. they said all kinds of horrible things. i found out later they do that so people with abilities will use them and then the ones who took us will have an excuse to fight back. to kill us. but i couldn't have hurt them if i wanted to, of course.
i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
it's rare to have a change of heart, at least for people who've gone as far as they have. it's about saving lives, in its own twisted little way. and it could be the lives of people you care about.
i'm really trying here. i even bonded myself to a demon trying to get over you.
it's hard. if it were neve, or any of you, i'd do whatever i had to do to keep you safe. but to stop this, i have to let neve do what he needs to do. and i already know how dangerous they are.
don't tell rook which part, that you were trying to get over me or that you seem to've failed?
it wouldn't make him uncomfortable, would it? what we do?
neve is smart. and believe me when i tell you that coming home to you is just as important to him as what he has to do. something like that makes all the difference.
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[the group that dash talks about, the one that kept people safe, jiho's not sure what kind of tactics they used exactly. but he can't help but think that he could've helped them too.]
it was a trap. they knew you would come.
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i got my parents out, but i didn't get away. i just didn't think. so, they took me. they only had me for a week, but.
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i think anyone probably would've done what you did. anyone who loved their family.
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i should've waited and asked for help. i shouldn't have gone alone. it was stupid.
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but you shouldn't have been hurt either. what did they do?
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they wouldn't let me sleep. they said all kinds of horrible things. i found out later they do that so people with abilities will use them and then the ones who took us will have an excuse to fight back. to kill us. but i couldn't have hurt them if i wanted to, of course.
sometimes i did want to.
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did someone get a chance to hurt them? neve?
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he still does.
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do you wish they were dead?
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if it meant they couldn't hurt anyone else again? it's hard not to wish it.
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are you wondering if it makes me feel conflicted?
i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
someone should burn that place to the ground.
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you both know you can always count on me. but i know how he'll choose to handle it. we're surprisingly similar.
i'm just better looking.
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i think you know him pretty well.
but he's definitely better-looking, sorry, jiho.
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but i don't feel bad about it either. it just has to be done, and i sleep better at night when it is.
[he wonders if neve has had a good night's sleep since this happened. if either of them have.]
wow, you really know how to play with a guy's heart. if i had one, i'd be pretty hurt right now.
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i'm angry, but it doesn't feel like that. it feels like once i know they aren't hurting anyone else, i'll be able to rest.
what you're saying makes sense to me, in other words. i guess.
well, i could get on your case for flirting with a married man, so aren't i kind of letting you off easy?
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i'm really trying here. i even bonded myself to a demon trying to get over you.
don't tell rook, he's a sensitive one.
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don't tell rook which part, that you were trying to get over me or that you seem to've failed?
it wouldn't make him uncomfortable, would it? what we do?
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both, i suppose.
i think he'd get a huge kick out of it.
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don't worry, it's only you that i tease.
and as long as that's the case, i guess i can keep on going. if he were uncomfortable, i'm afraid i really would have to leave you.