i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
it's rare to have a change of heart, at least for people who've gone as far as they have. it's about saving lives, in its own twisted little way. and it could be the lives of people you care about.
i'm really trying here. i even bonded myself to a demon trying to get over you.
it's hard. if it were neve, or any of you, i'd do whatever i had to do to keep you safe. but to stop this, i have to let neve do what he needs to do. and i already know how dangerous they are.
don't tell rook which part, that you were trying to get over me or that you seem to've failed?
it wouldn't make him uncomfortable, would it? what we do?
neve is smart. and believe me when i tell you that coming home to you is just as important to him as what he has to do. something like that makes all the difference.
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are you wondering if it makes me feel conflicted?
i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
someone should burn that place to the ground.
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you both know you can always count on me. but i know how he'll choose to handle it. we're surprisingly similar.
i'm just better looking.
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i think you know him pretty well.
but he's definitely better-looking, sorry, jiho.
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but i don't feel bad about it either. it just has to be done, and i sleep better at night when it is.
[he wonders if neve has had a good night's sleep since this happened. if either of them have.]
wow, you really know how to play with a guy's heart. if i had one, i'd be pretty hurt right now.
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i'm angry, but it doesn't feel like that. it feels like once i know they aren't hurting anyone else, i'll be able to rest.
what you're saying makes sense to me, in other words. i guess.
well, i could get on your case for flirting with a married man, so aren't i kind of letting you off easy?
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i'm really trying here. i even bonded myself to a demon trying to get over you.
don't tell rook, he's a sensitive one.
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don't tell rook which part, that you were trying to get over me or that you seem to've failed?
it wouldn't make him uncomfortable, would it? what we do?
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both, i suppose.
i think he'd get a huge kick out of it.
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don't worry, it's only you that i tease.
and as long as that's the case, i guess i can keep on going. if he were uncomfortable, i'm afraid i really would have to leave you.