there's something i need to tell you. it's selfish because i've been keeping it a secret and i'm still not ready for everyone to know, but i need to tell someone besides neve.
[ See, he told Neve he thought Jiho would get it and he was right. ]
all right. i don't know how much you know about this, but i didn't know what i was or where i came from growing up. my mother, my biological mother, left me on earth with my parents who raised me. but they never knew where i came from.
i only found out once everything started getting... bad. i knew it could put a target on their backs, so i decided to leave.
i told them before i left. explained things as well as i could, not that i knew a lot. i still don't, really.
they're the best people. i miss them a lot.
after i left, i met neve. and i started working with a group that helps people with abilities stay safe. we would listen in for radio conversations between the people who were targeting us. that was my job, i mean. anyway, one day, they mentioned my family. my home, my address.
i wish i had known you sooner too. and everyone here. being here is really good. knowing you is really good.
i didn't even think twice. they're my parents. they sacrificed so much for me. they didn't even have to take me in, but they did. and i was the reason that they were in danger.
[the group that dash talks about, the one that kept people safe, jiho's not sure what kind of tactics they used exactly. but he can't help but think that he could've helped them too.]
i think about that a lot. about what could've happened to them. if i had gotten there later, they might not have been able to get away. i would feel more guilt about that than anything, i think. but if neve had been there, maybe he could've stopped them.
they wouldn't let me sleep. they said all kinds of horrible things. i found out later they do that so people with abilities will use them and then the ones who took us will have an excuse to fight back. to kill us. but i couldn't have hurt them if i wanted to, of course.
i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
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Date: 2019-01-27 06:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-27 08:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-28 03:42 am (UTC)i felt like you might understand.
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Date: 2019-01-28 12:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-28 06:16 pm (UTC)it's about what happened to me. how i got hurt.
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Date: 2019-01-29 11:28 pm (UTC)i still won't ask any questions if you don't want me to.
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Date: 2019-01-29 11:44 pm (UTC)thank you for thinking of me until now. i appreciate it. it's not easy to talk about.
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Date: 2019-01-31 04:29 pm (UTC)tell me what happened. and if need be, tell me what you want me to do about it.
[translation: you want him to cut someone? please tell him that you want him to cut someone.]
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Date: 2019-01-31 04:57 pm (UTC)[ See, he told Neve he thought Jiho would get it and he was right. ]
all right. i don't know how much you know about this, but i didn't know what i was or where i came from growing up. my mother, my biological mother, left me on earth with my parents who raised me. but they never knew where i came from.
i only found out once everything started getting... bad. i knew it could put a target on their backs, so i decided to leave.
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Date: 2019-02-03 03:01 pm (UTC)sounds like they must've been pretty good people if you were willing to do that to protect them. being on your own isn't easy.
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Date: 2019-02-03 04:23 pm (UTC)they're the best people. i miss them a lot.
after i left, i met neve. and i started working with a group that helps people with abilities stay safe. we would listen in for radio conversations between the people who were targeting us. that was my job, i mean. anyway, one day, they mentioned my family. my home, my address.
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Date: 2019-02-04 03:08 pm (UTC)you didn't go there alone, did you? tell me you didn't.
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Date: 2019-02-04 04:13 pm (UTC)i didn't even think twice. they're my parents. they sacrificed so much for me.
they didn't even have to take me in, but they did. and i was the reason that they were in danger.
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:26 pm (UTC)[the group that dash talks about, the one that kept people safe, jiho's not sure what kind of tactics they used exactly. but he can't help but think that he could've helped them too.]
it was a trap. they knew you would come.
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:31 pm (UTC)i got my parents out, but i didn't get away. i just didn't think. so, they took me. they only had me for a week, but.
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:34 pm (UTC)i think anyone probably would've done what you did. anyone who loved their family.
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:45 pm (UTC)i should've waited and asked for help. i shouldn't have gone alone. it was stupid.
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:48 pm (UTC)but you shouldn't have been hurt either. what did they do?
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Date: 2019-02-04 05:57 pm (UTC)they wouldn't let me sleep. they said all kinds of horrible things. i found out later they do that so people with abilities will use them and then the ones who took us will have an excuse to fight back. to kill us. but i couldn't have hurt them if i wanted to, of course.
sometimes i did want to.
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Date: 2019-02-04 06:22 pm (UTC)did someone get a chance to hurt them? neve?
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Date: 2019-02-04 08:36 pm (UTC)he still does.
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Date: 2019-02-04 08:46 pm (UTC)do you wish they were dead?
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Date: 2019-02-04 08:50 pm (UTC)if it meant they couldn't hurt anyone else again? it's hard not to wish it.
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Date: 2019-02-04 08:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-02-04 08:55 pm (UTC)are you wondering if it makes me feel conflicted?
i got away. i got myself out. i lost something because of it, but i got out. other people didn't. other people probably went through a hundred times what i did.
someone should burn that place to the ground.
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