If you're wondering if I feel it, answer's yes. But - I feel pain every second of every day. It's not really that much of a big deal for me if it flares stronger for a little while
[ Welcome to Kwang's fun life of constant, constant pain. ]
He - actually, he's given me the very strong impression that lust is the last thing he's after.
[ Jiho wouldn't be the first person Kwang meets that doesn't care for physical intimacy. He wouldn't be the first one to have no libido. It's not exactly shocking to him, but it's surprising that Jiho would think that's what Rook is after. ]
You know that's fine, right? And I genuinely think that, if you were to tell Rook that, that you don't feel desire like that, he'd get it. He might even like it. He seems to want... romance, more than anything else.
[especially not pain that he caused himself. jiho shakes his head at him, voice reassuring.]
I'm fine.
[physical pain is the least of his worries right now. and he thinks that kwang is probably right given his own interactions with rook. it doesn't make a lot of sense. in some ways it would be easier if that was what the demon was looking for, then jiho could just forget about him completely.
because. romance. jiho. he groans and covers his face with both hands. that's a different story for him, something that he can't deny. and gods, why can't he just want to suck his dick instead. he knows his way around those a little better.]
I hate everything.
[he's said those words before too, but it's with a lot less conviction now. because it isn't true.]
[ Kwang nods, not pushing that one further. Some people are fine with physical pain, and can take it a lot more than others. Some people - like it, even, like the reminder of their mistakes and actions. ]
Okay.
[ And then, he lets out a soft sound, sort of amused. It's far from mocking, it's just - completely understanding. He's been there, many times before. ]
Life is - far from easy. You've got to take it at your pace. If what you need right now is to be given the space to understand what's going on through your head, you should ask for it. If what you need is actually letting things out and talking, well. There are plenty of people willing to talk to you, I'm sure, me included. I present the advantage of not really knowing much about you, not that I am any therapist.
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Date: 2018-09-26 10:12 pm (UTC)And what does it do to you?
[does it just sink beneath his skin and disappear? or is there even a moment where he feels it.]
Because he's a demon of lust.
[does he know himself? good question. but maybe he's starting to learn.]
And I don't think I have an ounce of that in my body.
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Date: 2018-09-26 10:18 pm (UTC)[ Welcome to Kwang's fun life of constant, constant pain. ]
He - actually, he's given me the very strong impression that lust is the last thing he's after.
[ Jiho wouldn't be the first person Kwang meets that doesn't care for physical intimacy. He wouldn't be the first one to have no libido. It's not exactly shocking to him, but it's surprising that Jiho would think that's what Rook is after. ]
You know that's fine, right? And I genuinely think that, if you were to tell Rook that, that you don't feel desire like that, he'd get it. He might even like it. He seems to want... romance, more than anything else.
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Date: 2018-09-26 10:39 pm (UTC)[especially not pain that he caused himself. jiho shakes his head at him, voice reassuring.]
I'm fine.
[physical pain is the least of his worries right now. and he thinks that kwang is probably right given his own interactions with rook. it doesn't make a lot of sense. in some ways it would be easier if that was what the demon was looking for, then jiho could just forget about him completely.
because. romance. jiho. he groans and covers his face with both hands. that's a different story for him, something that he can't deny. and gods, why can't he just want to suck his dick instead. he knows his way around those a little better.]
I hate everything.
[he's said those words before too, but it's with a lot less conviction now. because it isn't true.]
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Date: 2018-09-27 09:25 am (UTC)Okay.
[ And then, he lets out a soft sound, sort of amused. It's far from mocking, it's just - completely understanding. He's been there, many times before. ]
Life is - far from easy. You've got to take it at your pace. If what you need right now is to be given the space to understand what's going on through your head, you should ask for it. If what you need is actually letting things out and talking, well. There are plenty of people willing to talk to you, I'm sure, me included. I present the advantage of not really knowing much about you, not that I am any therapist.